If you had a magic wand, what would you want your life to look like right now?
That is the question I need to have answered in ten days. The rules – NONE; the answer – LIMITLESS. Abundance is free flowing.
So where to start?
Photographs do tell a story.
Those that know me well know that I have thousands of photos in the cloud – a photo (or multiple photos) to document every occasion, so, when I am old and grey, I may click open the virtual photo albums and remember the days filled with joy and laughter.
Except the photos that I perused of late are of dogs, beautiful sunsets, nature, skies, storefronts and buildings. HUMAN interaction is lacking. I also noticed that in every picture of myself, my mouth is closed, my teeth are not showing, and my smile is not as bright as it once was. The glimmer seemed to be gone.
Huge awakening.
I scrolled back through my library of photos as tears of gratitude rolled down my cheeks; thankful for the friends and family I saw surrounding me as I smiled from ear to ear.
What the heck happened to the glimmer? The past few years have not been easy for any of us, but I don’t know if I have actually processed my story until this exact moment.
Circumstances beyond my control!
I was at the Governor’s Inaugural Ball in 2019 dancing, drinking wine and having the night of my life with some of my dearest friends. A few days later, I learned the news that my job would be abruptly ending. Two months later, I was working for a national non-profit organization in DC and fourteen months after that, I changed my geographical location, moved back to my home town and started a new job. COVID-19 happened. Pathogens began to rage through my body, and I gained twenty pounds.
Reflecting tonight, I had no idea how the chain of events since the spring of 2019 caused such a jolt in my life; nor did I understand that leaving the town I called home after 11 years would impact my life so drastically. I left my yoga community, I left my friends whom I called family, and I think I left my glimmer sitting on the curb in that little town that I came to love so dearly.
Our past circumstances do not define our future.
So now what?
I am gainfully employed, I live in a beautiful home, I live within ten minutes of both my parents (and, I am one lucky girl to still have them both walking on this earth with me), I am reconnecting with old friends, I am making new ones, I found knowledgeable and trusting doctors, my massage therapist is fabulous, I practice yoga daily, I meditate, I have a spiritual practice, I journal, I am blessed beyond measure, and I am totally grateful for the life I have been given – but, I still can’t freaking find my glimmer!
The answer is simple.
If I had a magic wand my life would be full of glimmers; many connected moments in my life that spark joy and peace – I am not talking about great big experiences of JOY, I am talking about many micro moments where my smile gets a little brighter, my eyes glimmer at the thought of waking up to a new day of endless abundance.
It is time to step fully into the light and seek the good stuff.
Who wants to go on a glimmer journey with me?
“Since we are no longer humans lurking in the forest hiding from hungry animals, we don’t need to focus on the negative – see a glimmer, look for more and then delight in finding them – be deepened – be alive.”
Adele Josephine 