I stayed late at work this evening to catch up from vacation, stopped at the hardware store, and made a stop to purchase lottery tickets – where I met a lovely lady and her beautiful dog named Ben. We chatted about dogs and politics and essential oils – we made connections with mutual friends and marveled at how small the world is. We left as Facebook friends and are definitely going to plan a doggie date for our big furry dogs.
I’m now home after another brief stop to share some essential oils with a friend in need; Duffield is enjoying his bone and I am waiting for dinner to finish in the oven. The fire is burning bright and I’m enjoying a quiet warm cozy home.
I’m sad that vacation is simply a fleeting memory and that after 8 days of being surrounded by my dear Mother and fabulous friends…I am completely alone in my world with only my big furry dog who only thinks he’s a human.
Suddenly an intense feeling of loneliness sets in and on the next moment I begin to panic…anxiety creeps upon me and I feel the spinning begin…I then simply close my eyes and breathe and reach for ylang ylang…my heart beat regulates and I begin to ground and balance.
I realize that even though I am alone…I am NOT lonely.
My life is filled with many blessings I have a loving mother who stands by me through every up and down, she celebrates with me and comforts me when life gets tough, I have a crazy loving family, and close knit group of friends…my tribe is constantly growing and changing – and I know “HE” is out there waiting and looking for me.
I am blessed with the ability to travel to beautiful places, the gift of sharing and teaching yoga, I live in a place where I have access to beautiful spaces in nature, and opportunities for adventure are always within my reach.
My life is full and abundance abounds!
But I need you, I love you, and I thank you! ❤️
“When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin’ love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin’ alone
I think of all the friends I’ve known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody’s home
All by myself
Don’t want to be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t want to live, all by myself anymore
Hard to be sure
Some times I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure
All by myself
Don’t want to be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t want to live, all by myself anymore
When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin’ love was just for fun
Those days are gone
All by myself
Don’t want to be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t want to live, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t want to be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t want to live, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t want to be, all by myself anymore”
Songwriters: Eric Carmen / Sergei Rachmaninoff
Adele Josephine 